Lonely Sunday Mass

Sunday morning, I walked agaisnt the strong wind to the church to attend my lonely Sunday mass. After mass, I crossed the road to have my breakfast at the cafe opposite the church. All by myself. Adults were chatting to each while kid were screaming and running around the small garden at the cafe.

In the church, I was watching the family who sit in front of me. Grandparent, parent, 2 little girls with a little boy. Wishing peace to each other. Suddenly, I recall the two little gal who used to sit in front of us at Fatimah Church, Brickfields. They were so small when I just went to the Sunday Mass but they were all grown up at my last visit to Fatimah's church.

The surrounding merriness brought back the past into my mind.

This place does not belong to me. Someone who is alone with a book shall not stay at this atmosphere.

Autumn breeze is blowing away all the memory. Back to life, back to my one person apartment by breathing the air of this lonely space.

Deeper Conversation - A song from Yuna

Picture taken while crossing over to Puxi from Pudong with Ferry

A group of Uniten friend visited Shanghai lately. One of the friend's gf was someone that I heard story about her since ages ago. I knew her but never physically meet up with her. Yes maybe I had seen her twice but both times also never had the chance to talk to her. Since she is my friend's gf, every time when we met each other, I will catch up with my friend instead of her.

That day she wasn't willing to follow the group to the World Expo. My friend wasn't feel safe if left her stroll around SH alone. At the same time, I am no way to enter Expo anymore hence I volunteered myself to spend the day with her. Honest speaking, my heart had some hesitation before I suggested that. For people who know me well, I am a real weirdo. When I am in a good mood, I can be a very out spoken person even talk with anonymous person who sit right beside me. When I am not in the right mood, I can be real quiet. My lips will be totally zipped up. Besides, if I don't like a particular person for certain reason (or no reason at times), I won't bother to entertainment him/her. Nevertheless, everyone in that gang kept mock her as a super bad temper person.

Walked her back to the hotel, threw everything on the bed, relaxed in the room, went down stair to grab a cup of coffee, shopped a while, back to hotel, ate something for dinner...The most common activities for ladies however it will be so awkward if that two persons are only met up for the first time. But my worry in the beginning ended up totally unnecessary!

The whole day from afternoon until night, we chatted non-stop and amazingly we don't feel stranger to each other at all. We were talking about career, relationship, friendship until family. It has been very long I never talk to someone so much. Or shall I say listen to someone? Either way. Possibly throughout the 8 or 9 hours, I didn't share as much story as she is to me. Anyway I feel so comfortable with her, just sat there listen to her story, her life, her job, her relationship. Sharing bit of my opinion, my personal story and my life with her in between.

I do not know why we can talk so much. There isn't any effort needed to think of what to talk about. Naturally the topic was just flowing into our conversation continuously. Is it because she is someone who can talk a lot? Or because we just feel secure to share all the thing with each other? Or because coincidentally all our friends are overlap and somehow connected to each other in someway?

Sincerely wish that we can have more time to hang up together in near future. =) No matter what, it is a really a joyful moment to spend the day just like that with you, my friend - Steph.

Me? Writing politic?

I was following up with the news regarding Liu XiaoBo receiving the Nobel Peace Prize lately.

From Nobelprize.org somehow I read some the history about Mahatma Gandhi who is never got the chance to receive Nobel Peace Prize. I was reading how Gandhi was being discriminated at South Africa as Indian, how he held protest against racist and religion issues. All of a sudden, I recall the situation of Malaysia. I know that the situation nowadays is not as bad as last time. The minority group who is being discriminate and didn't have the same right as the 'Prince Earth' are living with good life and wealth. But, is it because Chinese and Indian who have secure job and financial status doesn't have the right to have equal opportunity in this country? No more political issue to be continue and back to the thing which cross my mind.

I hope, there will be someone out there, in my country, who will against all the law, difficulty, jail, detention, lead the minority group to have the equal right as everyone else in this country in a Peaceful Way.

It sounds like a dream....because everyone is living in a comfortable life while no one will concern how important it is to be equally fair as a citizen, our human right, freedome of media mass, speech.

It sounds naive...because when the leader in jail, I doubt how many minority Malaysian will still be supportive for the leader. How many Malaysian will really support the leader for 10, 20 and even 30 years without asking anything in return, without knowing what is the outcome of the fight, without knowing when is the day when the victory might come.

It sounds impossible...because even there is one leader who is willing to bring us to that step, human nowadays will translate him/her as someone selfish, he/she must do it for his own good like financially benefit.

However, I still love this country with all my heart. So, allow me to keep my dream for my beloved country.